Confession Session

Today, 5th November 2011, is a new day for me. A new life has begun.

I made a confession to my Teddy about the "bad" me. The "bad" me often do "bad" habit to pleasure my self. I have tried so many time to redeem my self from it, but in the end I keep on failing. The thing that I made is bad enough till I put it in the SIN list. Yes, I feel so terrible and sinful after I do it. Sinful enough to make me feel worthless.

I am not so an religous person, but I do believe in God. I believe in sin, heaven and hell. And I also believe in KARMA. So, the first thing comes into my mind after I do "it" is I will get something bad later on. That thought haunting me like crazy. I made a confession to God and I promised NOT TO DO IT AGAIN. But you know what? After several shot, I failed.

After a week I got what I called "the KARMA" plus weird circumstances for tonight, I say, I want to confess it to my BF. I did, and I feel BETTER.

Lucky me, he didn't step away from me, instead he said "I accept you the way you are and I will always be". He also said, "I will help you through this problem and you will be free from it. Be good to yourself for me, please?" then he hugged me and wiped away my tears.

That is BIG for me.. When I confess something bad about me, I am afraid he will be backed off or stepped away from me, but HE DID NOT. He faced the truth, he takes the concequences and he will be my anchor for my struggles.

Thank you so much for it honey.. Thank you for listening to my problem. Thank you for willing to help me from this hell hole. Thank you, for EVERYTHING.

I LOVE YOU and I WILL ALWAYS BE

Sincerely,
YOUR LOVE